© Julie Bolitho 2018

macadamia nut steamers

1 Oct 2008

At fifteen

we sat in church

                          Sundays

and felt guilty

 

about the sex

                     Saturdays.

 

We wouldn’t

hear

the sermons—

we would feel

each other’s hands

for movements and sweat—

meters to distinguish

if there was anguish

or lavish disconnection

from Jesus Christ—

the Savior of all things adolescent.

 

In the winters

we would escape

through congregation

                                  men

                                  and women

and find ourselves

blasted

by ice

floating from the sky.

 

In nylons

I would shiver

and you would drive

me away

to a place

where you bought me

macadamia nut

steamers.

 

I hated macadamia nuts,

but you were eighteen

and I fifteen

and “macadamia nut steamers”

sounded mature

and good

to young ears.

 

I grew

to love the drink

because I knew it

was for the Saturday

                                 sex

             the Sunday

                               guilt

             the love I knew

             you felt. You wanted

to warm me when Christ was gone

and compassion was lost in Sunday sermons

and Saturday nights turned

to Monday mornings.

 

 

©Julie Bolitho. “macadamia nut steamers,” Poem. Standing on the Cast Iron Shore and Other Poems. Leaf Books Press: 2008, p. 83.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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